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Wednesday, January 21 - Anything but my genes. Well... I had a very very cool and interesting dream last night... lets see... I was in my house, and my parents were both there and there were other people too. I saw my cousin Daniel... there were about 15 people there... mostly adults... anyway, we had this job to do c... these beetles had been released and we had to catch them all again... what u do is u walk around, and then when you see one u stretch out ur hand and really reach for it... and if u stretch towards it enough it'll turn into a ball of light and it'll speed towards you and u can catch it in ur palm... still as the ball of light... so we were walking around inside and outside looking for them... after u caught them u had to walk to our other gate, and put it in the mailbox over there... I was really bad at it the first time... coz i wasn't strong enough to pull any towards me... but I kept trying... I caught two at one point... one at a time and I was holding them both, one in each hand... but the problem was that if u didn't concentrate on them hard enough, concentrate on holding them to you, they'd just fly away again and disappear... so I lost them both again... they were individual bugs... they each had a name and looked different... the one I caught in my left hand was called Vera. (ill explain later)... so I was walking round looking for them again... I stretched out my hand and moved it around in front of me... coz if u do that and you're strong enough they'll sparkle and you'll know where they are... so somehow I found one again and gave it to someone else to put in the mailbox... and then I found Vera and I was taking her over but i lost her again coz i wasn't concentrating... I tried to bring her back but i wasn't strong enough... but Dad was over in the direction she flew so i left him to find her... then I went back around to the other side of the house and I went over to talk to some other people who were there... they happened to be sitting in the trees... as I was talking to them the clouds above my house became dark, and pink, and there was thunder and lightning... I was really scared... then this HUGE beetle rose up from behind the house and sort of flew and hovered above it... it was like building energy or something... all the people outside with me were waving at the people inside for them to get out of the house... then I saw my dad come around from the other side of the house, but he went inside instead of coming over to us... I ran around to where he went in and followed him in... he was sitting there on a chair at a table... mum was sitting at a chair on the opposite side of the table and they were holding hands over it... the table was shaking and the roof was opening up above them... winds were blowing and it was like they were trying not to be sucked into the sky... I could see the beetle hovering above... i ran to my parents and grabbed them and dragged them away, or atleast outside, i saw them go... but then mum (a different person but they were both mum) was kneeling on the floor, like she was collapsed... and she was going to be swallowed by the beetle... so i ran to her and heaved her off the floor and we went outside... so everyone was standing outside in a line holding hands and trying not to be sucked away... there were doors to our right... i looked over and about 6 or so people wer banging on them and trying to get in... i didn't want to let them in because i didn't want to leave the safe place i was... people were asking me why i wouldn't let them in... but they pushed the doors down and came over to stand with us... someone asked my why i wouldn't open the door but i went closer to danger to get my parents... i think i said "because they're my parents"...Then i woke up... it was a really cool dream... really moving... i liked it... what does it mean? Today I went out for lunch with Nan-n-Pop... we went to this cafe thingey in a nursery... we ate inside because it was 43* outside... well, according to the car... i had caesar salad but like always they used almost an entire lettuce so i couldn't eat it all... My brother is in the paper... the local paper... i duno if i said but ppl came to our house ages ago to talk to him and jess about their HSC artworks... i slept through it like usual but i read the article today... it's very good except for the spelling mistake in it... write=wrote!... Watched Danny Deckchair today again, with mum, before we went out... i still like it... it's very good... also watched I Capture the Castle... mum's choice... i have the book but i never got past page 37. It's not a terrible movie... the family is poor, the father hasn't written anything in 12 years, the son is an intellectual, and older daughter makes a guy fall for her because he has money... they get engaged... but she's really in love with his brother... it's really complicated... wait, let me start again... The family. Mum, Dad, Rose(18 maybe?), Cassandra(17, turns 18), Thomas(12-13 maybe?)... The mum died from sickness aparently so they live with their step-mum, Topaz. They live in a castle far away. Stephen is the boy who works for them, they're poor and they haven't paid him in 6 months apparently but he's hopelessly in love with Cassandra so he stays to look after them. The father is a writer who wrote an exceptionally brilliant novel 12 years ago and locks himself in his turret waiting for inspiration for his sequal... Topaz is an artist. Cassandra writes the whole story as a diary. One night Simon and Neil (they're brothers) break down in their car and come into the house... of course Rose wants to marry one of them because they're american and rich... anyway... time moves on and Rose fixes her eyes on Simon coz he is the oldest. They get engaged. Just before their wedding Rose runs away... with Neil... coz she's in love with him... Stephen is in love with Cassandra still and she's in love with Simon but he's in love with Rose and Rose is in love with Neil and he with her. Lol... anyway... Rose & Neil get married... Topaz leaves at some point but she comes back... the Father begins writing his 2nd novel after much pushing and shoving by Cassandra. THE END Watched mum's other dvd last night... twas called Hope Springs... Colin Firth, Heather Graham, Minnie Driver... mum thought it was a bit weird... i did too... but not altogether terrible... 50% of the movies we rented yesterday had Colin Firth in them... hehehehe... I didn't end up going for my L's today... i decided this morning that i'd wait, and go tomorrow... but it means i have to either get them tomorrow or friday because I want to get them before Maureen's party. which is on sunday... and I NEED to get them before my brother comes home... and I would like to have an hour or two in my book before he comes home... coz then i'll be ahead of him... and i would like to get a job... but I duno bout it... I should really get a job... but... i duno... i'm lazy... but i also don't really wanna... i'm not one of those people who can just do things... i need to ask and i need someone to show me and stuff... i'm pretty pathetic really... megan should know... i tried to help her pack food once at her house... ages and ages and ages ago... I don't like those sorta situations... if i'm with myself i'm pretty fine... but anyway... mum said there was an ad for a job at the florist... but i don't even like flowers that much... and kate always complained about her job there coz she kept cutting herself and she got paid dirt... lol... I am trying to convince mum to buy an Inn... hehehehehe... near our house... but a bit further in the bush... that way she and dad can run it... and they can still live at home... mitchie can still go to uni and on the weekends he can either stay at home or help out... i can still go to school and catch the bus there after and help out, or find somewhere quiet to do my homework... i think it would be nice... and then after it makes it's first million (wishful thinking) dad can buy another motel where he's always wanted too... on the beach... and they can run either one or whatever they want... Dad was telling me in Berra that it was normally the father who started out the chain of hotels... started with one or maybe even two and then passed it down to the child who made it into a million dollar empire... hehehehe... so that would be my job... i would love to run a motel... or an Inn... or a Big-style-hotel... or just a Pub... once when we were travelling we stayed in a motel that was owned by friends of dads... they had kids too so it was sorta fun... we played spotlight... the girl was sorta annoying but it was okay... I'm going to the movies tomorrow... somehow i got cohersed into seeing Honey again... it's not a terrible movie... i'm just not used to Ms Alba being so nice to people... and... so.. un-biker... and so... un girls-kick-ass attitude... duno who's going... i gotta go to the library first... return some books... I love my cat A life lost is a soul rebourn "I must go and do what I can to protect the Ring," "Okay, we're saving jewelry now?" *sob sob* I've been randomly reading old stories on my computer and I found one... it's a Harry Potter Future fic... set like 10 years after they finish school... of course it's totally Ron/Hermione... but i am annoyed with it... because i was reading it and having a merry old time... but... but... it's not finished... and the problem with that is that i'm gonna have to finish it... it's very thin too... like it's just story... i think i have to fatten it up with some more thoughts and feelings and normal life... but it should be good... Ron's getting married... sooooooo sad... anyway... i'll keep ya posted on it. I have a feeling that i've posted my helani fic before... but i just read chapter one again... and i really really like it... i think it's good... i've written chapter one and one paragraph in chapter two... i should really write some more... but i'm waiting for my muse... i really really need one... ehehehehe... just wrote some stuff... bought 3 or 4 paragraphs... i need to progress the story though... hmmmmmmm... competition? noooooooo competition right at the end... well... before the end... if u know what i mean... i need... um... her mum to see... or she puts them in her bedroom... and she... oooooooo... or maybe... yeah, interruption... old bed... mum says she thinks its nice... she falls asleep... she disappears. I like it... Mitchie said he was gonna gimme a flask for my birthday, but he never did... which makes me sad... but i'll get over it... it's not a big deal... Eloquent is a nice word in itself... i think... Abigail Porter. Solange + soft drink... she knows what im talking bout Can't sleep Neither can the wind Neither can the trees Or the sun Can't hide Not now or forever For for a day now, never I'm found Argh..... whats with me being so bloody poetic at the moment... it's annoying the pants off me... is it annoying all of you as much? Love in a Cold Climate. Truth: I can't see myself getting old. Maybe nobody can see themselves getting old. It's a foreign concept really. You can't see yourself being who you aren't. And old is way too broad a topic anyway. At what age are you old? 90? 60? 30? There is no definition for old. Just the concept of being older. But in truth. I don't want to reach 40. I really don't want to reach 50. Or 60. My Pop is 86 or about that, and he told me that he won't live until he's 100. He said he might make it to 90. I'm scared. He lives by himself. He still drives around. He has a beautiful garden. He grows plants and flowers and they're all beautiful. He's deaf. He ALWAYS wears his hat everywhere. And his glasses. And his glasses case is always in his shirt pocket. I see him in shorts always. He gives us $15 each birthday and christmas. I love playing cards with him when he comes over. He's stubborn. He's my dad's dad, truely. crumble | 5:46 pm
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DOB: 8th of October COUNTRY: Australia & Kangaroos
FAMILY: Mum, Dad, Mitchie, Claudia PETS: Tom the Sexy Beast FEELING:   
likes... buffy the vampire slayer, greys anatomy, glass house, kumars at #42, spicks and specks, west wing, angel, gilmore girls, dark angel, firefly, stargate, lord of the rings, star wars, the simpsons, crossing jordan, tru calling, ally mcbeal, bradley whitford, dominic monaghan, david wenham, rupert grint, james masters, anthony stewart head, elvis, hilary duff, evanescence, good charlotte, the whitlams, machine gun fellatio (the band), my baby tom, writing, singing in the shower, playing pool, netball, basketball, exams, tidying, chinese food (lemon chicken, sizzling steak, chicken and sweet corn soup, san choi bow, spring rolls, prawn chips), my old friends, my new friends, my other friends, my box, my papyrus, my faerie picture, mount caules story. 
 dislikes... bugs, honey, insects that she thinks are poisonous (all of them!), marmalade, studying, not knowing things, not being able to splel, the english curriculum, vacuuming, the beach, being on stage and not knowing what to do, shopping, gross things, vegemite, olives, dark chocolate, flower smells, the hsc, beetroot, my boobs, pickles, people picking their noses, half-eaten food, playing drama games all lesson and not doing any work, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed studying, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed doing something other than studying, losing money, being fat, when the tv times change and you don't know, mornings, being lonely. |
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