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Monday, February 9 - Burnout I didn't want to go to school today... but I did... and I don't want to go tomorrow... but I think i'm gonna have to... it's 10pm and i've got IPT Homework, Ancient Homework and Drama stuff to do... + 2 assignments that I should have started by now. This is all fucked.The whole novelty of being the new girl's worn off. Now i'm bored at lunch coz I have noone to talk to, i'm bored in class coz all the lessons put me to sleep + I only really enjoy learning Business + Maths. Ext Eng is good but I don't have ne friends in the class so I sit in the back corner by myself and don't say anything. I need a holiday. I need a break. I need to be able to so stuff... Mum's out picking up mitchie... he's at jenna... he and her have been a bit 'interesting' lately... they were gonna break up i think... but now everything seems fine... i'm all confused... Everyone's bitching at school... I have nothing in common with anybody... the one person I can actually have a decent conversation with is smarter than me which totally sucks... but he's really nice. I want to be myself but i can't because i don't know who i am... god... i'm turning into a preacher... unlike Reverend Parris who stopped talking about god in his services, now he only talks about going to hell. Sorry... too much english... School sucks... i go to school... learn random crap and come home... the bus stinks... literally.. coz it's full and packed with little boys who are rude and push and shove and join in on ur fucking conversations when they're not invited too... I miss being happy... and laughing at school... and running around for no reason... and knowing everybody and waving at everybody and talking to everybody... and i miss hanging out with my friends... and them laughing at my jokes "I am funny, you just haven't realised it yet"... I also miss eating at school... so far in almost 2 weeks i've eaten one ovaltine and one sultana at school... drinks don't count as food... i've bought two bottles of passionfruit stuff... i'm done. I don't want to go to school anymore but I don't wanna stay home coz i'm afraid i'll miss something and I really shouldn't... coz it'll put me behind and then i'll fall further and further behind and i'll fuck up because i have nobody to borrow notes off... + I have double drama tomorrow... which sucks because I don't like drama... why can't I have double maths? I like maths! In fact i love maths!!!!!! It's amazing! It's easy... I finished the work + then then extra work + then I had time to sit around and twiddle my thumbs... the fucking teacher was avoiding me coz he didn't want to talk to me coz he hasn't even bothered to learn my name... should have learnt it a week ago coz now he just looks stupid. I wanna fly away. Fly far away. I wanna see the earth. From another place. You can come with me. If you want to. I wanna take you. Far far away. And If we get homesick. We'll just turn around. And make the journey back. From far away. (c) Wilson Inc. 2004. All rights reserved. crumble | 9:54 pm
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DOB: 8th of October COUNTRY: Australia & Kangaroos
FAMILY: Mum, Dad, Mitchie, Claudia PETS: Tom the Sexy Beast FEELING:   
likes... buffy the vampire slayer, greys anatomy, glass house, kumars at #42, spicks and specks, west wing, angel, gilmore girls, dark angel, firefly, stargate, lord of the rings, star wars, the simpsons, crossing jordan, tru calling, ally mcbeal, bradley whitford, dominic monaghan, david wenham, rupert grint, james masters, anthony stewart head, elvis, hilary duff, evanescence, good charlotte, the whitlams, machine gun fellatio (the band), my baby tom, writing, singing in the shower, playing pool, netball, basketball, exams, tidying, chinese food (lemon chicken, sizzling steak, chicken and sweet corn soup, san choi bow, spring rolls, prawn chips), my old friends, my new friends, my other friends, my box, my papyrus, my faerie picture, mount caules story. 
 dislikes... bugs, honey, insects that she thinks are poisonous (all of them!), marmalade, studying, not knowing things, not being able to splel, the english curriculum, vacuuming, the beach, being on stage and not knowing what to do, shopping, gross things, vegemite, olives, dark chocolate, flower smells, the hsc, beetroot, my boobs, pickles, people picking their noses, half-eaten food, playing drama games all lesson and not doing any work, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed studying, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed doing something other than studying, losing money, being fat, when the tv times change and you don't know, mornings, being lonely. |
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