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Wednesday, April 7 - telling it like i see it today... what tomorrow? I thought I made it... And then u shoved a gun to my head and told me to do it all again... It was hard enough the first time... As I struggled through... But now i'm gonna die before I reach the end again... And it'll be on you... My blood, my spit, my life's juices... It'll all be your fault for pushing me to the edge and over it... I don't hate you... Because i'm sure you hate yourself... And I don't ever have to live in this world again. You do... CHORUS I'm gone, You're still here. I don't have to cope with consequences any more. You're tired. And you're lonely. But you fucked up and now you'll know a life worth nothing. I don't hate you, but I know you hate yourself. And thats good, enough, for now. Somebody stupid put water in the the Orange Juice... it's nor cordial folks! So now I have nothing to drink... because i'm trying to stop drinking soft drink (whoever though of the word 'fizzy' drink is kinda stupid!)... Today... well... thisafternoon... kinda funny... I went home... after shopping so I was completely tired and in a bad mood... I walked through the family room... I was polite... I said hello... I went into the kitchen to drop off mum's bag... and then I walked towards my room... but the little blighter got there first... She was about 3 steps in front of me... she opened the door... I gave my mother, behind me, a death glance... All I wanted to do was go into my room, drop everything... and then maybe watch one of the movie's I bought... but noooooooo... the little girl wants to make my life a living hell... doesn't she... anyway... Mum says "why don't we let Katharine get changed" so Tara agrees and I go into my room and shut my door... I stay in there... I stay in there with my door locked... I stay in there until 8pm... Until she goes to bed... now i'm hiding in the computer room because it's the only room in the house with a net connection... and it's dark..., and I can't see the keys properly... and i'm tired... and all I want to do is sleep... but i'm scared... She came into my room this morning and picked up my tv remote from the floor and put it in front of the tv... IT DOES NOT GO IN FRONT OF THE TV!!!!!!!!!!! Argh... if u put the tv remote in front of the tv then you have to walk the same distance to the tv to get the remote which destroys the whole purpose of haVING THE REMOTE IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!!!!! AND YES I KNOW I AM OVERREACTING!!!!! Anyway... while she was in there I played asleep... so she left... hehehehehe... I'm picky... The one thing I hate about sleepovers is people seeing my when I am sleeping... camera's scare me completely... I am always insecure and scared... it's just something I really don't like... sorry! Wanna know a secret? The song up before... it's not really a song... hehehe... there's no tune to it... I just started typing it out... I don't like the last paragraph though... but I didn't want to delete it and lose it forever. :-( sadness... My battery is dying... 57%... crumble | 9:43 pm
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DOB: 8th of October COUNTRY: Australia & Kangaroos
FAMILY: Mum, Dad, Mitchie, Claudia PETS: Tom the Sexy Beast FEELING:   
likes... buffy the vampire slayer, greys anatomy, glass house, kumars at #42, spicks and specks, west wing, angel, gilmore girls, dark angel, firefly, stargate, lord of the rings, star wars, the simpsons, crossing jordan, tru calling, ally mcbeal, bradley whitford, dominic monaghan, david wenham, rupert grint, james masters, anthony stewart head, elvis, hilary duff, evanescence, good charlotte, the whitlams, machine gun fellatio (the band), my baby tom, writing, singing in the shower, playing pool, netball, basketball, exams, tidying, chinese food (lemon chicken, sizzling steak, chicken and sweet corn soup, san choi bow, spring rolls, prawn chips), my old friends, my new friends, my other friends, my box, my papyrus, my faerie picture, mount caules story. 
 dislikes... bugs, honey, insects that she thinks are poisonous (all of them!), marmalade, studying, not knowing things, not being able to splel, the english curriculum, vacuuming, the beach, being on stage and not knowing what to do, shopping, gross things, vegemite, olives, dark chocolate, flower smells, the hsc, beetroot, my boobs, pickles, people picking their noses, half-eaten food, playing drama games all lesson and not doing any work, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed studying, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed doing something other than studying, losing money, being fat, when the tv times change and you don't know, mornings, being lonely. |
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