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Sunday, May 2 - fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck I want somebody to shoot me... right now... at this exact moment... i actually want to die...I am a bad person because... i like two boys I am a bad person because... i take my friends for granted I am a bad person because... i'm not good enough for anybody I am a bad person because... i don't love my father enough I am a bad person because... i don't look after my brother well enough I am a bad person because... i am not good enough to my mother I am a bad person because... i don't look after myself enough I am a bad person because... i am selfish I am a bad person because... i can't be bothered to write all the other reasons Do you know how hard it is to make yourself bleed... well it is hard... and annoying too... and u havta wash the knife after... lol... I remember Kath asking me if I washed the knife after... it was ages ago... where has my rock gone? I must crawl under it and die now... I don't know why i'm so unhappy... well... it might be because i haven't done barely anything on my ancient assignment that is due tomorrow... or it could be because the stupid netball uniforms do nothing for my self esteem... or it maybe be because i don't think i can do anything i try at because i'm so stupid and pathetic... I think i need to learn some synonyms for pathetic... because i'm gonna keep using that and that in itself is quite pathetic... I am drowning myself in a bowl of water It's only an inch deep But i reckon if I breathe it in My heart will stop to beat I keep on asking questions About why i'm here and how I'm at the point of not giving a fuck Deep down, inside, i a cow I'm not even good at the things I love Singing, writing stories I think it's time to drown myself And end your misery I don't get why we are still friends Why you'd want me in your life All i do is mess things up And get us into strife So give me vodka, give me pills Lets end this here and now So I can't ask the questions Why i'm here and how I really want feedback on that because I want to know what you guys think of it... but I don't mind if you don't tell me because in the grand scheme of things who really gives a flying fuck... I like the word fuck... fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck... fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fucking hell fuck fuck... mwahahahahahahaha... fuck "I had a dream about you in Copenhagen, and you were there, and you, and you and you" "I'll sleep on top of you if I have to" "I'll leave you alone to make out with your sock drawer" "Close the door. Hello Boys" Oh fuck it... i don't want to me here any more... but the bloody knives aren't sharp enough... damn them to hell for all eternity... i don't believe in hell... don't believe in heaven either... or god... so i'm kinda like a hopeless being floating through life without the oars to steer herself with... fuck it crumble | 12:26 pm
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aoi's design from SCRATCH © 2004
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DOB: 8th of October COUNTRY: Australia & Kangaroos
FAMILY: Mum, Dad, Mitchie, Claudia PETS: Tom the Sexy Beast FEELING:   
likes... buffy the vampire slayer, greys anatomy, glass house, kumars at #42, spicks and specks, west wing, angel, gilmore girls, dark angel, firefly, stargate, lord of the rings, star wars, the simpsons, crossing jordan, tru calling, ally mcbeal, bradley whitford, dominic monaghan, david wenham, rupert grint, james masters, anthony stewart head, elvis, hilary duff, evanescence, good charlotte, the whitlams, machine gun fellatio (the band), my baby tom, writing, singing in the shower, playing pool, netball, basketball, exams, tidying, chinese food (lemon chicken, sizzling steak, chicken and sweet corn soup, san choi bow, spring rolls, prawn chips), my old friends, my new friends, my other friends, my box, my papyrus, my faerie picture, mount caules story. 
 dislikes... bugs, honey, insects that she thinks are poisonous (all of them!), marmalade, studying, not knowing things, not being able to splel, the english curriculum, vacuuming, the beach, being on stage and not knowing what to do, shopping, gross things, vegemite, olives, dark chocolate, flower smells, the hsc, beetroot, my boobs, pickles, people picking their noses, half-eaten food, playing drama games all lesson and not doing any work, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed studying, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed doing something other than studying, losing money, being fat, when the tv times change and you don't know, mornings, being lonely. |
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