|
Monday, October 4 - randomwildside So... went to Steph's house last night for a sleepover... we didn't actually end up dancing around in our Pj's like i'd been telling people we were going to do... we just hung out... we played board games... heehehe... we watched movies... we ate chocolate... and we gossiped... yes thats right... we gossiped about YOU! hehehe... nah i'm kidding... we chatted about stuff... it was cool... i haven't been to a sleepover for a while... so it was really cool... fun fun fun...So i don't really like people reading this blog... because this is kind of the other side of me... well not right now but it does get depressing sometimes... but i'm not going to hold back just because i know people are reading this... i'm gonna write what i want to write and if you dont like it you can stop reading... just a note to say that I dont think parents have time to think about it... being depressed and all... I don't think it fits into their life... most parents have to look after their children... they have to work... they have to pay the bills and buy food and give encouraging comments about the new work of art on the fridge... when you're younger... you've got more time... and life doesn't really mean that much to you... you have time to think about where you are and what you feel and everything... so you get depressed... i think everyone gets depressed... constantly... i think people just have to ignore it... it doesn't go away... it's always there... but you have to push it to the back of your mind for just as long as it takes to take another breath and live another day... My problems aren't important... they don't even register on the radar... but to me they're problems... because they are MINE... if they were someone elses I would tell that person to suck it up and that everything's going to be alright... From now on I have decided not to try and help anybody... because people have to learn how to work out their own solutions... you can't help someone else... it just doesn't make sense... so there goes all my friendliness out the window, it falls smashing to the ground... splat... But i'm not going to kill myself... because seriously... although life is shit... it's more than you've got when your dead... I'm almost 17 years old. I don't believe in music. I don't believe in love. I don't believe in marriage. I don't believe in God. I don't believe in relying on other people. I don't believe in myself. I don't believe in dreams. So why the fuck am I still here? I mean seriously. Its kinda like a curiosity thing. I just want to know what will happen while i'm alive. Curiosity killed the Kat. And it will. Someday. I dont drink. I don't smoke. I don't do drugs nor do I really have any interest in doing so. I dont particularly want to have sex anytime soon. I don't want to get a job. I don't particularly want to earn money. So... feeling very 'down-on-my-luck' right about now... I havta go buy Sarah a prezzie... maybe i can go shopping tomorrow before dinner + movies... yes that may work... I was going to buy something for Rishi but now he's having a party and he's said no presents and im kinda broke anyway and I dont know what to get him and I'll be paying for my dinner and a movie... so yeah... excuses excuses... Lizzie is on soon... or now... brb crumble | 2:08 pm
|
|
aoi's design from SCRATCH © 2004
|
|
DOB: 8th of October COUNTRY: Australia & Kangaroos
FAMILY: Mum, Dad, Mitchie, Claudia PETS: Tom the Sexy Beast FEELING:   
likes... buffy the vampire slayer, greys anatomy, glass house, kumars at #42, spicks and specks, west wing, angel, gilmore girls, dark angel, firefly, stargate, lord of the rings, star wars, the simpsons, crossing jordan, tru calling, ally mcbeal, bradley whitford, dominic monaghan, david wenham, rupert grint, james masters, anthony stewart head, elvis, hilary duff, evanescence, good charlotte, the whitlams, machine gun fellatio (the band), my baby tom, writing, singing in the shower, playing pool, netball, basketball, exams, tidying, chinese food (lemon chicken, sizzling steak, chicken and sweet corn soup, san choi bow, spring rolls, prawn chips), my old friends, my new friends, my other friends, my box, my papyrus, my faerie picture, mount caules story. 
 dislikes... bugs, honey, insects that she thinks are poisonous (all of them!), marmalade, studying, not knowing things, not being able to splel, the english curriculum, vacuuming, the beach, being on stage and not knowing what to do, shopping, gross things, vegemite, olives, dark chocolate, flower smells, the hsc, beetroot, my boobs, pickles, people picking their noses, half-eaten food, playing drama games all lesson and not doing any work, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed studying, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed doing something other than studying, losing money, being fat, when the tv times change and you don't know, mornings, being lonely. |
 |
|
|
