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Thursday, January 6 - uninspirational-unenthusiasm I wonder if he reads my blog anymore, I mean I know he used to but we've kinda stopped talking at all so I doubt he does, he may, but he's probably busy, with very important things that he has to do with his friends and stuff, so he probably doesn't read this anymore... Hmmmm...Sooooooooooo... Yesterday I went to stephs... we hung out, started a production company called Teddy Productions (TM)... it was fun, i was sleepy... hehehehe... steph was silly... hehehehe... I actually found it difficult to sit through a buffy episode recently... it was bargaining parts 1 & 2 so technically it was two episodes... and i watched it once and then i watched it with commentary by the writers Marti Noxon and David Fury (and i remembered those names off the top of my head)... i'm not just obsessed with buffy because of the girl-kicking-arse stuff in it, i like the characters and i'm interested in the choices they made in scenes and stuff like that... In my humble opinion Joss Whedon is a genious... like he's a God... so i think i'll put him on the very short list of people who I would like to be like... he can be my role model... hehehehe... Omg it was funny... the day before yesterday... i actually ventured away from my dwelling... first we drove over to helani's and dropped over some clothes, then we went home... then we picked up uncle and did the grocery shopping... then we went home... then we went and dropped in at Alicia's place, had doughnuts, chatted about stuff... then dad and i were going to go see oceans 12 and so we invited Alicia but she didn't want to see it so we agreed to go see "Raise your voice" (yes the hilary duff movie!! yes with my father!!)... and so we drove straight to the shops and got in line but the movie was sold out!! OMG it was full! And this was the last session (6:30)... argh... so the three of us went and had chinese in a nice restaurant with table cloths and then we went to the video shop neerby and dad became a member and we rented garfield and we went back to Alicia's house and the three of us watched it together... hehehehehehe... it was the most bonding i've done with my father yet these holidays... the movie was kinda shit tho... but it had the guy from rat race and roat trip and stuff and he's cool! Oh did i finish talking about steph's? I dont think i did... anyway we watched once more with feeling and turbula rosa... and laughed a lot... hehehehe... then we played tiny teddy productions, then we went to the park and went on the swings but it was really hot and i wasnt feeling well... then we got ice bocks and then we went back to stephs and then steph copied my once more with feeling cd and then we watched the behind the scenes of once more with feeling stuff and then mum picked me up... it was fun! heheheheehehehehehe... i think i want to buy a notebook.. like a nice one that i can write and scribble in and stuff... coz if i type i generally get distracted... hehehehe... oh woe is me! We had tree men over at our house this morning... loud noises... mum came and woke me up because they were taking down the big tree near the house and she didn't want us inside in case it went crash and we ended up dying... so i sat outside on the couch for a while until they'd taken off the top part of the tree then i promptly went back to bed... hehehehe.... till midday... oh woe is me! A special message for Stephy: RANDY RANDY RANDY RANDY RANDY RANDY RANDY!!! LMFAO! I swear, life would be easier if you just killed yourself... no choices to make when you're dead... at least i dont think there are any, not that i know from first-hand experience... but killing yourself is difficult... and is it the right thing to do? I mean i suppose it's selfish to kill yourself, your friends and family (that is if you have any) will probably be sad, and they have to pay a couple of thousand dollars for the funeral... but in the long run you probably leave them with precious memories and spare them years of angsty fights and confrontations and lies and stuff like that... but is it selfish to live in this world? I mean its not like the best soul or thing is picked and put into a baby so it can live, its kinda luck, you're not the most worthy combination of sperm and an egg, you're just the lucky one, well i suppose thats not really correct but u get what i'm getting at... anyway maybe its selfish to say that 'i was born so i get to live for a long time!'... maybe you should kill yourself... or maybe you should have lots of children and kill them... i'm not sure... Is it weak or strong to kill yourself? I mean it's gotta be damn difficult... that i know as a fact... I mean to be able to kill yourself in any way you have to be a very strong person, but i suppose if you are that strong you should generally be able to live in this crappy world... What i just dont' understand is purpose... i don't understand why we are given life by our parents and expected to do specifically nothing... i mean there are no expectations for humans to do anything spectacular... there is really noone to expect us to do anything... or be there to clap when we achieve the goal... its really just the 'why are we here?' question... who created us? are we just freaks of nature? are we a virus? should we kill ourselves for the sake of the environment? why are we so big? i know thats a bit random but insects and animals are generally smaller than us... why are we so special that we are big? Is it because if we were smaller we would have died out already? To make my life easier I would like a purpose... a goal... something to try and achieve, otherwise i'm just gonna be a bum living on the street with a sign saying "the end of the world is nigh"... thats really what separates reality from TV... they generally have a purpose... e.g. buffy has to protect the world... I'm just feeling uninspired... crumble | 1:59 pm
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DOB: 8th of October COUNTRY: Australia & Kangaroos
FAMILY: Mum, Dad, Mitchie, Claudia PETS: Tom the Sexy Beast FEELING:   
likes... buffy the vampire slayer, greys anatomy, glass house, kumars at #42, spicks and specks, west wing, angel, gilmore girls, dark angel, firefly, stargate, lord of the rings, star wars, the simpsons, crossing jordan, tru calling, ally mcbeal, bradley whitford, dominic monaghan, david wenham, rupert grint, james masters, anthony stewart head, elvis, hilary duff, evanescence, good charlotte, the whitlams, machine gun fellatio (the band), my baby tom, writing, singing in the shower, playing pool, netball, basketball, exams, tidying, chinese food (lemon chicken, sizzling steak, chicken and sweet corn soup, san choi bow, spring rolls, prawn chips), my old friends, my new friends, my other friends, my box, my papyrus, my faerie picture, mount caules story. 
 dislikes... bugs, honey, insects that she thinks are poisonous (all of them!), marmalade, studying, not knowing things, not being able to splel, the english curriculum, vacuuming, the beach, being on stage and not knowing what to do, shopping, gross things, vegemite, olives, dark chocolate, flower smells, the hsc, beetroot, my boobs, pickles, people picking their noses, half-eaten food, playing drama games all lesson and not doing any work, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed studying, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed doing something other than studying, losing money, being fat, when the tv times change and you don't know, mornings, being lonely. |
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