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Tuesday, June 14 - WARNING: Angst ahead. I really dislike people... like many many people... but it was interesting because about 5 minutes ago i was complaining to myself because i miss people (well one person in particular today coz i was looking at photos)... so i hate people but i miss people... I find that very perculiar (joy? did i splel it write?)...I got annoyed at stephen today, I even got annoyed at terry today! I was rude to people, I didn't speak to them properly, Chris looked at me funny, I made fun of Jasha (okay so I always do that, but I shouldnt), I, I... oh, so im so bloody stuck up its all about me... me me me... or I, I, I... argh... "you can be such a bitch sometimes" Yeah keep sayin it and someday i'll believe it... oh look, Terry's signed on to msn, but i'm not going to speak to him because the conversation would go like this "Hey" "Hi" "How're you?" "I'm okay, you?" "Yeah im alright" "..." "..." And that would be it... so thats why i don't talk to terry on msn... Yes, its still ALL ABOUT ME!!! So today I got home from school... got changed... ate some food while chatting... watched ally mcbeal from last nite... and i think i cleaned my room somewhere in there, while getting yelled at by my mother... Oh aint life grand So we had to hand in our English assessments today... mine was fairly basic... but generally speaking I seem to get away with it... mum's standing just inside the doorway of the room looking at me... she always assumes i'm talking to someone "You don't have any friends so who are you talking too?" It's not actually harsh because I do maintain that I have no friends... it helps me feel better about myself (Yes, ME!!!!!!) So today was crummy... I keep telling people things, it's like I just can't shut up or something, even things I don't want to talk about and decide not to tell anyone about I end up telling people... three people today... THREE!!! It's not like i'm unhappy (going back to my other train of thought about my crummy day and hating people) or anything... I'm a generally happy person most/all of the time. I just seem to HATE ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING!!! And I have absolutely no reason too... Like there are people out there who are unlucky and have perfectly good reasons to hate the world... maybe they're sick or something, or somebody they know is sick... so they're allowed to hate the world... I think i hate the world because my life is so bloody perfect... oh I think it is... bloody perfect..., mum, dad, older brother, dad (used to) goes to work in the city to earn money, mum has a couple of jobs but is mainly responsible for looking after the children... absolutely soddin' perfect "You make me want to commit suicide" crumble | 6:12 pm
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DOB: 8th of October COUNTRY: Australia & Kangaroos
FAMILY: Mum, Dad, Mitchie, Claudia PETS: Tom the Sexy Beast FEELING:   
likes... buffy the vampire slayer, greys anatomy, glass house, kumars at #42, spicks and specks, west wing, angel, gilmore girls, dark angel, firefly, stargate, lord of the rings, star wars, the simpsons, crossing jordan, tru calling, ally mcbeal, bradley whitford, dominic monaghan, david wenham, rupert grint, james masters, anthony stewart head, elvis, hilary duff, evanescence, good charlotte, the whitlams, machine gun fellatio (the band), my baby tom, writing, singing in the shower, playing pool, netball, basketball, exams, tidying, chinese food (lemon chicken, sizzling steak, chicken and sweet corn soup, san choi bow, spring rolls, prawn chips), my old friends, my new friends, my other friends, my box, my papyrus, my faerie picture, mount caules story. 
 dislikes... bugs, honey, insects that she thinks are poisonous (all of them!), marmalade, studying, not knowing things, not being able to splel, the english curriculum, vacuuming, the beach, being on stage and not knowing what to do, shopping, gross things, vegemite, olives, dark chocolate, flower smells, the hsc, beetroot, my boobs, pickles, people picking their noses, half-eaten food, playing drama games all lesson and not doing any work, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed studying, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed doing something other than studying, losing money, being fat, when the tv times change and you don't know, mornings, being lonely. |
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