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Saturday, December 24 - K? I'm in a bit of a better mood than I was a couple of hours ago. Probably because I watched Gilmore Girls. Oh god i'm such a dope.Argh i'm so annoying. I just like listening to myself speak. Argh. Argh. Argh. Yeah well it seems as if my semi-good mood has worn off already. Disappointing effort to say the least. I went outside to read my book today and ended up sleeping on the trampoline for half an hour. When I went back inside my book had curled up because of the heat. Bummer dude. The TV is singing. Wow, I really am in a bad mood at the moment. I think I need a hug. With sprinkles. I was hurled into the Head of Senior School's office one day because mother had called the school. Yes, my mother was a big fan of calling the school. So anyway mother had dobbed in that I was avoiding going to school and I was summoned to an inquisition. Mrs. G spent most of the time talking about 'why I feel the way I do' and that I should 'always feel like I could talk to her' Argh. Anyway she pointed out to me that my fears of failure were uncalled for and academic results had shown that I was not actually doing badly. Sometimes I feel like I was the only one who had any idea how badly I was actually doing. Mwahahaha. Everyone overestimated me. Mwahahaha. And yes, I am going to dwell on this for a long long time because yes, I am an idiot, I go over and over the bad things and brush off anything good. I mean duh, it makes sense that I was the only one that knew I wasn't living up to my full potential. It makes perfect sense. I just don't want it to be christmas. Can't I just tell it that I don't feel very merry and that I want it to come back later? Will it respect that? I may go sleep on the trampoline. crumble | 8:55 pm
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DOB: 8th of October COUNTRY: Australia & Kangaroos
FAMILY: Mum, Dad, Mitchie, Claudia PETS: Tom the Sexy Beast FEELING:   
likes... buffy the vampire slayer, greys anatomy, glass house, kumars at #42, spicks and specks, west wing, angel, gilmore girls, dark angel, firefly, stargate, lord of the rings, star wars, the simpsons, crossing jordan, tru calling, ally mcbeal, bradley whitford, dominic monaghan, david wenham, rupert grint, james masters, anthony stewart head, elvis, hilary duff, evanescence, good charlotte, the whitlams, machine gun fellatio (the band), my baby tom, writing, singing in the shower, playing pool, netball, basketball, exams, tidying, chinese food (lemon chicken, sizzling steak, chicken and sweet corn soup, san choi bow, spring rolls, prawn chips), my old friends, my new friends, my other friends, my box, my papyrus, my faerie picture, mount caules story. 
 dislikes... bugs, honey, insects that she thinks are poisonous (all of them!), marmalade, studying, not knowing things, not being able to splel, the english curriculum, vacuuming, the beach, being on stage and not knowing what to do, shopping, gross things, vegemite, olives, dark chocolate, flower smells, the hsc, beetroot, my boobs, pickles, people picking their noses, half-eaten food, playing drama games all lesson and not doing any work, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed studying, my father nagging me to study when I am indeed doing something other than studying, losing money, being fat, when the tv times change and you don't know, mornings, being lonely. |
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